multipass

Okay. I am sitting on my bed with my ankle being iced because I had an issue with walking the other day. It doesn't really hurt a lot, it is just stiff and weak. I was thinking of a title for this blog, and randomly "multipass" came to mind. I don't even remember the title of the movie that is from, but it involves an orange haired woman and Bruce Willis, and at one point she is eating chicken, and says, "Chicken, yum." So I laughed to myself as I started this blog.

I got to hang out with my favorite little buddy tonight, an adorable eight month old boy (maybe nine months now). He was so tired that he was giggling from his gut, the best kind of laughter ever, especially coming from him. One of my friends was hiding behind a blanket and playing peek-a-boo, and that was it, pure joy. I am praying for that kind of childlike, pure joy to return to my life. It's coming.

I am mostly moved into my new place. I love it! I feel like I live in a model home. I am so blessed. I have a real bathtub. I have even used it once. Really, I just know that God is going to help me grow as I live in this new environment.

I cried tonight in my kitchen while eating a bite of ice cream. I realized that I felt like I deserved being called out for my "hiding" (as I can best describe it). I was with my Pastor tonight while watching kids, and he just loved me and served me. He gave me half of his cookie and gave me my water when I had a sleeping baby in my arms. He made sure I was comfortable. When I got home and realized that I had expected something different, I cried. God is that way. When you feel like you deserve the worst, He hugs you and loves you. He reminded me of that tonight. God loves me no matter what, for who He created me to be.

I also watched Cinderella tonight. I am hoping that my prince is coming soon too.

already june

Lots of stuff going on in June! Birthdays, graduations, and I am moving! Yes, t-minus 9 days until I have to have my room cleaned out for inspection. Then it is bunking it with the girls at my current house for 3 days after that before I can move into my new place. I am going to be sharing a room for the first time in three years, and although that is going to be odd, I think it is for the best. My sleeping habits have been weird, and I know that the presence of another person in the room will keep me from snoozing...at least long enough to break the cycle and form a new habit. It is the perfect timing. I am hoping it will help me get up for prayer meetings more often. I regret that my inability to go to sleep early enough has kept me from being consistent. I realize, however, that I must make the decision to get up in the morning, and I have not done a good job of doing that. My new roomie is going to be Stacy...see picture below. I am so excited!!! I could live with my current roomies forever, but I know God wants me to branch out before I eventually meet my perma-roomie (aka my husband...which I am always praying will come sooner than later! hahaha). Stacy will be a lot of fun to live with, and I know God wants to do something amazing with us living together. I can't wait!

For those of you who actually read this, pray for me and my work situation. I am having to deal with A LOT of open shifts in the next month or so, and I am getting stressed about it. It is starting to look a little better, but what it all means is that I may have to change my schedule around to work some of the shifts and to train the new people we do end up hiring. There is a lot of work ahead no matter what, and I would like to be able to not get behind or worry too much. I love my job but seriously, open shifts are pretty much my least favorite thing to deal with! Especially when there are 60+ in the next month! Eek! I am trying to take it one day at a time at this point.

June, June. That means that July is coming up next...and you know what that means? Fireworks? Yes, but also my birthday! I am going to be 26 years old. Wow. I don't feel 26 years old most of the time. I also used to think that people who were 26 were sooo old! I am not old, and I am not where I thought I would be at 26. But I cannot complain. I have a lot of positive things in my life that I did not expect either, so I am blessed.

Well, I will sign off for now. I should go eat dinner. Yum...