Monday, May 10, 2010

tip me over and pour me out...

I feel like I am in the midst of a whirlwind, shaken up, stirred, and poured out...and not sure where everything will all end up. Maybe it's this time of year, maybe it's God's way of getting me to let go of control...and maybe it's just craziness, but I feel like every area of my life is being pulled out and dusted off. I keep joking with people that perhaps, in this time, when I am having to trust only in God, that He will introduce me to my husband too. Yes, please. But that is still one of those areas that have a big fatty question mark on it.

I am coming off the rollercoaster of NEEDTOBREATHE fun...liken it to a sugar high crash, haha. The concert in SLO was incredible, and I had such a blast being the runner for the guys. It was, hands down, my favorite show so far. And until yesterday, I thought it was my last show for the year...hee hee, then I saw that they are coming back for a free show in Bakersfield in 2 weeks. Still, all the work for the show and all the hype from my vacation is gone now, and that part of my life is calming down.

On the other spectrum of things, I am moving in July. Found out the day after I got back from vacation that the house I thought I'd be living in until I got married was getting sold...yeah. I am so very grateful though that this morning I found out that Stephanie and I were accepted for the apartment we wanted. I will pay less, have a bigger living room, better parking, and be closer to a bunch of friends than before. This is good. I am just not really looking forward to the moving part.

Work is not without change...nor are other areas of my life. I pretty much had a mini meltdown yesterday. I felt incredibly overwhelmed. This is understandable. It was Mother's day and I was also having one of the worst on-calls of my work history. I think I may have had one worse than this. But maybe not. I am thankfully done tomorrow and get Friday off...I am on the verge of throwing the phone out the window...

The biggest thing I am clinging to is God's word. He is calling me to expectant hope, even when I can't possibly control the circumstances or know the outcome. I know He is leading me and holding me tight during this season, and as long as I TRUST, I will not only survive, but I will do well. Here's to the other side of the crazy season...

1 comment:

The Deans said...

Amen to the new season...I am ready and in need of one.
Love you!