Tuesday, June 24, 2008

sometimes you need a little encouragement

Today was a bit of a tough day. Work was fine, but tonight when I was preparing to have my cell group, there was a hiccup. And it boiled down to one of the girls in my cell having a difficult time and including me in it. Fortunately I was met with encouraging words along the way, starting from a friend who I babysit for. God was letting me know He was with me no matter what the circumstances looked like. The best encouragement to me, however, came from an old kids song from a play I was in when I was around ten years old. It goes:

"Draw me nearer, this very hour,
Fill me up, with your power,
Grant me boldness to spread the good news,
Draw me nearer, this very hour"

Of course, it being a kids song, it goes more like "draw me nearer-er, this very hour-er", etc. But it came to me tonight, a blast from the past, but with a very clear purpose. To remind me that what I am doing is right. And that I need God's help to do it. I need to be filled up with His power. That He grants the boldness I need, and that most of all, I need to draw near to my Jesus. So simple, and yet so powerful.

Monday, June 23, 2008

preparation for revelation

On Friday evening (on the hottest day on the planet...okay, not really, but it was way too hot for me, and that is a subject for another day...), I drove down south to visit my dad to take him out to dinner. I love going to see him, and unfortunately it does not happen often enough. It was not a very long trip, but it served as a preparation for what God wanted to speak to me later in the weekend. It is funny, I bought my dad dinner for his birthday/father's day; yet, he ended up taking me out to breakfast the next morning and sending me home with a little gas money. I am learning how to receive blessing, even when it doesn't make sense. I am confident that if my dad could, he would have sent me home with much more than that. That is the heart of a father. On Sunday night, my pastor was talking about the very same subject. He was talking about how God, our Father, wants to bless us. All we have to do is go spend time with Him. Pastor Terry shared that when his children come spend time with him, everything is free. And that will not change. He loves to bless them. He compared that to God's heart. God longs for us to spend time with Him so He can lavish us with His love and blessing. We began to pray, and God reminded me of how much my earthly dad loved me enough to send me off with a small blessing. He then spoke to my heart about how much MORE He wanted to give me. That it starts by taking the time to be in His presence. I have been struggling financially and I have such a desire to give. I strongly dislike the feeling of not being able to be generous because of what my bank account dictates to me. God is in charge of my finances, and I am beginning to learn to trust Him fully in this area of my life. I am not in control, and should not be. I've tried. It doesn't work. But I know God has brought financial miracles to my life as well as many others' lives. So, I am learning what it means to really spend time with my Father and how to receive the blessing He is waiting to pour out over me.

Saturday, June 14, 2008

you know you are an adult when...

I was recently thinking about this because I realized that I listen to talk radio in my car now. I used to despise talk radio! It was sooooo boring and all I wanted to listen to was music. Now, I enjoy listening to various talk shows, especially those on what is going on in today's world. Even a year ago, I never would have thought to do this, yet here I am. I am also having some weird issue with turning 27. It is as though I am realizing I am an adult. And there is a collision of where I am and where I thought I'd be, and they do not match up. But there it is. So, here are some funny ways that you know you are an adult when... (I added the last one...)

  • Driving a car doesn't always sound like fun.
  • You have friends who have kids.
  • Saturday mornings are for sleeping.
  • You are taller than the slide at the McDonald's playland. (oh wait, that'll never happen for me...hahahaha)
  • Your parents' jokes are now funny.
  • You have once said, "Whutch-you talkin' 'bout Willis?"
  • Naps are good.
  • When things go wrong, you can't just yell, "Do-over!"
  • The only thing in your cereal box is ... cereal.
  • You actually buy scarves, gloves, and sunscreen.
  • You leave concerts and ballgames early to beat the crowd.
  • You WANT clothes for Christmas.
  • You don't want a Camaro because of the insurance premiums.
  • You listen to talk radio!!!

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

blink! there it goes...

I looked at my blog tonight and realized that I have not written for about a month. Seriously, time has flown by. Here it is, June. About three days ago, I realized this and had the thought "oh no! My dad's birthday is coming and it totally snuck up on me!!!" By the way, happy birthday Papa! So, with that, June is here, and things show NO signs of slowing down. I am excited by all that I am involved with as of late...job change (I am official- Vocational Services Manager...although I am only now really learning what that means. Ha ha.), reaching out to people who don't know Jesus (everyone should!), singing, teaching in kids church, and the list goes on and on. I have also started babysitting again! So fun!

Anyway, that is a mini update. It has been an interesting week so far, but God is good! Hopefully, I will have more thoughts to unleash in the coming weeks :)